When tears of canthus are still flowing quietly, I am really sad to think about what you said to me! Is that what I am in your eyes? In exchange for my three years of high school classmates, you said I used her! I dare you girls to make a shield to defend me, a little person with no height, no appearance and only a thin body! I’m really sad to live. I’ll only show off a little of my knowledge to talk about how much you like to narrow your gap. I shouldn’t make a high-profile statement about how much I like to excel in the whole world with you.! I shouldn’t have approached your world without restraint, which can’t tolerate any jokes, to disturb the peace you should have had in your life. I don’t deserve to be a great friend of yours, because I have a purpose to be your friend. I will take you as a stepping stone to pick the stars in the sky and give them to others..     Yes, a boy can’t be good to a group of girls, or he will be said to be very happy, or someone will pour jealousy into your life, making your natural life sour.. A good boy can’t be good to a large group of girls, and a good boy can only keep his mimosa in the middle of the cold shoulder and can’t have the smile of other girls.! A good boy can’t be shy and sad in the face of the person he likes, deliberately talking and laughing loudly with other girls in front of each other.     The sky was deeply touched by your words. I was so moved that I forgot to dry my tears.. I am very grateful to you for picking out my false face and making me happy and unable to find a landing. I am very grateful to you for making me no longer so childish. Yes, I was really naive. Why should I make a fool of myself and share my story with you repeatedly, and cheat you to say that I am very humorous and say how boy I am, and know how bad I am and how responsible I am to be in front of you to win your sympathy.. I’m too pushy, really! I was born very sad. I don’t deserve to have my own right person. I only deserve to be a Xiao Mao puppy. Who told me to be so delicious that eating you wasn’t enough to count on her.     Yeah! Who called me unruly! I’m a bad boy! I entered the third-rate university with an incomparable score with you and boasted that I was tired and hard – working. I even made a mistake when I wrote down my mood in my talk.. I’m really easy! I am easily seen through by you, easily told I am good or bad by you, hated by you, scolded by you and ignored by you.! I should not fly my dream in spring, I should only be frozen in winter, I should not take out new leaves in summer, I should only fade slowly in autumn..     I’m not as good as you think. I can’t reach the height of the person you think about.. If I hurt your best friend one evening, I’m willing to say 10,000 sorry to your friend. If 10,000 is not enough, you can mock me in the most contemptuous way.!     I haven’t had a relationship in recent years. I always write down her appearance in the oldest way in my diary I don’t know how many times, and I will secretly smile.! Because I also started to have people I like. But many things in the world are so accidental that they happen inadvertently. I’ll be happy to talk and laugh with you and your friends every night, and then with my humble beginnings, you begin to think I’m interested in your friends. Then you began to make fun of me every day, and I also laughed foolishly.. When I took your friend’s snacks, when I wrote a small note with your friend, when I took pictures with your friend, when I happily went to play supper with your friend’s meal card, when I had lunch in the classroom and chatted with your friend, when you talked nonsense again, when your friend comforted me and when you took a book to make fun of me, my tragedy today was thus staged.. You scold me on the other side of the computer. I stood on the other side of the phone and asked why. Then I saw myself crying, and then I found myself really wrong. I was too naive!     You shouldn’t approach your fairy tale world, because I am not your prince charming. I have made your beautiful fairy tale world so desolate. I shouldn’t have participated in your life. I should have drifted far away when I was sailing. Then you can’t hear your voice in the distance and you can’t see my untidy back. We each follow our own path, without intersection. But the distance was empty, and the sailing ship couldn’t find the place it wanted to reach, and then moored at random, and the ships met occasionally.. But a ship such as Titanic hit an iceberg, once beautiful only once!     I really don’t know why you scold me like this today. Yes, I understand that you are a straight-hearted girl and you have your own elegance, but I really don’t understand that you are going to put the vitriolic words into my heart so much.. Have you ever been hurt! Oh, by the way, you were cheated by boys? You hate boys being too insincere, but you can’t be too extreme! You can’t deny that I sincerely get along with you and your friends in the name of my friends! You can’t punish me for my mistake because of my childish behavior. I totally deny me! Do I really have such hypocrisy?     I was originally a heartache lover. Although I was generous and tolerant, I was also sometimes very vulnerable. To be honest, I couldn’t even touch myself, let alone you.. If I’m really wrong, you can tell me well and not export so hard. That’s how you treat boys? If that boy is not bad, have you ever thought that you would make that boy feel inferior and sad!Do you always look at me as not pleasing to the eye?? I admit that I’m not full of flowers in front of you, and I can’t attract your attention.. I will only make you so angry.     Friend, hehe! I really don’t understand whether I curry favor with you or that friend of yours. Do you know that it will make me disappear from your world? It’s not easy to have same-sex friends alone, and it’s not easy to have opposite-sex friends.! In your friend’s view, just don’t you allow your friend to make a mistake? Besides, did you dare to conclude that your friend really cheated you? Can’t you hold half a grain of sand in your friend’s view? If so, I really feel sad because I am the half a grain of sand! If a person says it is very acceptable in front of his friends, are you going too far! Friend is wrong, also not so cruel! Oh, it turns out that you never regard me as a friend. But I have always been silly to treat you as a friend!     In our class, I have such a friend, a gay friend! I clearly remember a friend who beat me severely. He beat me at the entrance to the canteen in the blue sky with enough force to keep the news of the whole spring. To be honest, I really hated myself for being so naughty at that time. I grabbed his umbrella and ran in the wind and rain. He chased me angrily in the wind and rain. At first I thought he would not take it seriously to joke with him.. But when his slap hit me on the back of my head in such an instant and with such strength, I was silly. I was sad to throw the damn umbrella heavily on the ground, and then I ran like a drowned rat in the wind and rain..     Since then, I have ignored him. I hate him very much. I even want to kill him with a knife.. But I’m a man who never gives up his heart. When he spoke to me voluntarily in the clasp, I forgave him again. I forgot the bag that has been hurting my head for a week.. I never forget my friend’s momentary fault for his momentary kindness to me. Although I have many conflicts with those friends, people who are emotional animals are the ones who tie up their friend’s deep feelings in the conflicts. Today you hurt me to the extreme. I would rather you severely slap me in the face than listen to your bad voice, saying I am a mean person and saying I use my friend.!     I know not to take other people’s words to heart and go my own way to let others say them, but it is not ordinary people who hurt me, but friends I have always thought very much to talk to! I can’t hurt, you can’t hurt either! Your friend can’t afford to hurt either! If my friend’s I really have a bad place and I really hope your friend’s forgiveness, you don’t remember the bad of your friend now and then, you should always think about the good of your friend.! I also admit that I am a little straight to you, because I know you are also a straight man. I was wrong. Okay, I was wrong! That can only blame me for being childish!     This day woke up, not as usual, the whole portrait was paralyzed. Out of the window, the autumn wind, which tore its throat, dashed against the bedroom glass, howling and howling, and suddenly the feeling of pain hit me all over my body.. When I slowly put the cold little hand on my forehead, I didn’t realize that my head was really hot and I was ill? Yeah! I have been in poor health since I was a child. I was laid down on the front line like a soldier in a long illness field, but I was resurrected on the front line.. I often resent myself why I am not tall, why I am so thin, and why I am so weak.     I walked down the stairs with tired feet and went to class. The wind outside blew harder, pulling my thin clothes tightly. I shuddered in the wind, and the wind was more angry in my shudder.. But I did not accept my fate because I clearly understood that I came to school and I came to learn technology. I can’t lose my confidence because of the emotional trauma. I want to study hard. I want to learn medicine well. No matter how difficult the road ahead is and how tired I am, I can’t fall in such a small ditch, but I also want to fall in the next few decades.. No matter how the outside world strikes me, I will still fight back the pain and loneliness to do every lesson and do every extra-curricular thing well..     Speaking too, there are not many beautiful scenery in this school, but what impressed me most was the strong wind here. The school is located near the Ganjiang River. The water in the Ganjiang River is not very clear. The sound of running water rattles every wave.. Roll up the autumn waves, wet my eyes standing in the window again and again. I gently opened the window, and Jiang Feng squeezed in like a child who had been thirsty for a long time.. Blow up my hair, did not interpret the amorous feelings of a teenager.     Once upon a time, young people wrote many poems for the sake of love for their youth. After the beautiful and sad poems were stapled into volumes, they have been lying quietly in the closed bookcase.. I have not been read, sometimes what others see is only the one who stole out, and most of them are imprisoned by me, a sad person.. Because I don’t want others to see my sad face all the time, I want to show my humor and cheerful face to the world. Even if I can’t laugh at myself, I also want to laugh at my friends, my family and my classmates. This day is not as bad as I thought. At least I learned a lot. I didn’t lie on the table like a sick dog, staring straight at the clutter in my hands.. Although I felt very tired and tired on this day, I still didn’t show the pain in my heart and body in front of others. I just wrote these here and in the place where I dream. Since I am an easily injured child, I should learn my chosen major well. Although I can’t cure the mental pain, I can alleviate it by solving the physical pain..     Although I can’t give everyone a good look at the disease, I will do my utmost to give my life in my hands. This may be my sense of mission in my job, and this is the only point that I feel at ease after my injury..Besides, I can also express my feelings through my hobbies. Maybe my writing style is depressed, but my depression can better make me wake up and live better in the future.. Of course, a depressed person does not mean that he has lost confidence in life. The two cannot be equal. The same can only be said that those who lose confidence in life will be depressed.     I am so young and the road at my feet is so long, how can I lose my good yearning for life because of some sadness in my youth?? I’m just venting! Of course, my attitude to vent is too bad, because I am also very uncivilized. I used urgent words to hurt you and hurt myself with deadly feelings.. I am like a knife hand, killing you and myself at the same time. I hate myself very much for the reason that I love to bear grudges. I’m not very manly! I should have a good chat with you and your friends. Although it is not the best way to chat, at least we will not lose him or me, at least we are still very nostalgic..     The maple leaf was cut off by the autumn wind. Although the maple leaf is very sad, the maple leaf does not want to lose the autumn wind just like this, because the maple leaf will have to wait for the spring breeze to wake him up again next year.. Maple leaves still love autumn wind. Although they complain about each other, I believe they don’t want to lose each other in life. At least they came to this world together and got along with each other for that time..     When I write down these messy things, I am also out of nature. I don’t want to complain about your dissatisfaction with me in the form of words. I only hope you can feel your classmates when you browse word by word. I was hurt in front of you.! Injuries are not sins, but my frailty. Who called me childish! If we hadn’t approached at that time, maybe we wouldn’t have quarreled, but if we hadn’t approached, then we wouldn’t have so many good memories! In the depths of my memory, there are always a group of young boys and girls, whose wings gallop across the time I have never lost, but there will still be a group of sad people waiting for happiness in isolation.!     I can’t find it. Autumn is coming. I can’t stop the whole people when they encounter some unhappiness. It feels great to have to make some sad things to write about.. I really hate myself too. I hate that I can’t end it. I have to find someone else’s account again and let people all over the world know the same thing.! So sad!     I’m really disappointed with what I did. After all, you and I were classmates and friends.! Why do you make such a tragedy? Think it’s really not worth it. By the way, if you open my space at some impulsive moment and see these lost words I wrote, will you be very sad! I really don’t understand whether you bullied me or I bullied you! All I know is that I am hurting you with words now. After all, you and I are classmates and friends! Why do you make such a tragedy? Think it’s really not worth it.     By the way, if you open my space at some impulsive moment and see these lost words I wrote, will you be very sad! I really don’t understand whether you bullied me or I bullied you! All I know is that I am hurting you with words now. Of course, you are also likely to mock me again on an unclear day, and then I ask you why, you didn’t give me a reason, but just said that I was a mean person, and I gave your friend’s kindness to other girls and showed off how great I was.! I lay in bed with tears and read the story of tears wetting the pillow!     However, it is finally the day of the National Day Holiday. I don’t have to endure loneliness so much to live. I can sit on the train heading home and temporarily leave the sad place where all the injuries occurred on my head.. I spilled tears on the back, and when the sound of a long song rang, I believed that pain would go away from me and happiness would follow.. But when I wanted to get on the bus with my bag on my back, the driver said the bus was too full to fit! I was stupefied, and suddenly a burst of sadness ran into my heart. I reluctantly stepped out of the car, and the bag on my shoulder suddenly weighed a lot, crushing my whole body out of breath. I’m going to spend my sad night here again! I was furious to the extreme. So I shook my head vigorously on my way back and said I had failed!     I really didn’t know Nanchang was so cold in October, the autumn wind was blowing, the rain was misty, and the waves of slight cold pounded my heart. I didn’t fully recover from illness and suddenly coughed. Thinking about my recent disappointment, I really blame the world a bit.     Night, night without moonlight, pieces of golden light shuttling through the city night sky outside the window. I’ll watch you hurt and wait until the next morning!